THIS FALL

I love fall. I love all seasons but fall marks the end of summer and the start of nature winding down, the cool crisp air, pumpkins, thanksgiving and leaves falling off trees. In my kitchen, it’s the smell of cookies and cake baking in the oven, eating fresh apples from the farmers market, making pies, and making butter nut squash for my little ones. It reminds us of the impermanence of nature, of letting go and starting anew, a different type of new.

For me this fall is really marks the end of the old me and the start of a new me. I am really the same the person on the outside but I am completely different inside.  It’s a celebration of whom I was before and who I am today.

This year has been such a great change for me. I have changed a lot in my emotional maturity and spiritual evolvement and wow all the crazy experiences I have had to get to this point. I broke open this year and am now able to stand alone belonging nowhere, standing tall with my head up and my heart open.

Before I go on, I have to say how thankful I am of everything and I thank god every single day for bestowing such grace on me.

I have really grown in different ways and I celebrate each day how far I have come. The celebration will of course continue but this will be one of the years so far in my life where there has been such profound personal growth. I believe there is more to come and I have yet so much to learn.

I feel very much equipped to deal with anything else that will come forth and I have total faith in myself and god. This fall and every day from now, I cherish the new me who is wiser, braver, stronger, calmer and realizes that love is the only way. I have a different and more authentic way of living my life from here on and one of the greatest lessons that I have learned is I AM ENOUGH AND WORTHY.

I believe that I would not be who I am today without ever going through everything I did. Experiences make you and not break you. With everything that is going on in the world and in your inner world, take a moment and reflect how it has evolved you as a person. I am sure that most of us have had a pretty tough year and some crazy experiences and moments but think about how those experiences have shaped you and be thankful for them. Every single thing that you experience is a lesson, a growth opportunity and it is meant only for you. Some of us go through the same type of hardships, whether in your personal relationships, jobs, health or losses but each is unique to its own in the way you experience it. Nothing is wasted.

My friends, I cherish and celebrate every single one of them, not just the happy ones but especially the hard, painful ones. There have been happy, sad, angry, tearful and proud moments and there is more to come. I don’t know how to really express what I am feeling right now but all I can say is WOW!!!

So even though things are slowing down this fall and birds are migrating, the old me is gone and the birth of a new me has begun. I am so excited and can’t wait to see what’s ahead but for now, I take this present moment and truly knell down, look at the sky above me, with my arms wide open and say THANK YOU!!, I am ready to receive more and I LOVE YOU!!!

Peace,
Monita