Hello my friends!! Happy Monday! Well, I finally got the email that I am starting my new job in 2 weeks. My first thought was oh no vacation over and then yippee, I am finally going to be getting a paycheck.
I have been off since the summer being at home with the kids and since they have been at school, really enjoying being at home and using the time to myself. Now, the count down to my first day at my new job has begun. I am having mixed feeling of happiness and nervousness at the same time.
I am also trying to fit in all the things that I want to do between now and the next few days. Firstly, taking care of my overall health is really important so exercising everyday is on the front. Secondly, getting my quiet time by either going for a walk and practicing to be fully present. Thirdly, reading as much as I can during the day. Fourthly, watching HGTV and food network and lastly soaking up the sun every single second that I can.
I know that once I start my new job, I will have very limited time to myself. Working all day, coming home to be the kids, making dinner etc will leave me with no time. So I am purposely really trying to fill my mornings now with all the things I want to do for myself.
My kids know that I am going back soon and they understand...I hope. I have had such a great time being home and able to to drop them to the bus and pick them up. Now, my husband will be in charge of drop off and pick up. I will certainly miss the days but I know that when I feel down, all I will have to do is remember the smile on their face and our many wonderful moments together.
I loved being home with them and experiencing camp mom. I will say that I am so grateful that I had the opportunity too. It was the best summer and time went by so quickly. Now, its back to the work grind for me.
I am starting a new job after 15 years and the thought of walking in to my new work place gives me the jitters. I am nervous but I know that it was pass in the first couple of months on the job. I just need to get through the first couple of months. So what will that entail. Lots of self care and love!!!
I have had a nice long break and am not sure how to feel going back to work. Some days I feel excited about it and other days I feel overwhelmed at the thought of walking into an office and sitting in front of the computer for over 8 hours a days! Yikes, how am I going to sit in front of a computer all day!! I have got so used to walking around home and being more active then I ever have been.
For me, finding a way to keep active while at work is going to be a lot harder. There is no good walking path nearby the office and I know that since everything is going to be a fresh start, I will be sitting more on my desk than I'd like to while learning the new job, meeting people and figuring things out. All the things anyone would need to do right when starting a new job. But why does it seem so difficult..or am I making it harder then it really needs to be?
I always need to question myself. I know that there is not much that I can do about the fact that I am going to be in front of the computer long hours during the day. The only thing I can do is to make sure that I get up and walk around as much as possible and that I keep up with my exercising. Okay that feels good to write out.
Now, how about the new job itself. Well, its going to be good to learn new things. I am a learner and I love learning, but this job itself does not seem to excite me that much. I have to work to pay the bills so it is a means to an end. It is a job, not a vocation.
Keeping the purpose in mind here is going to be really crucial to help me get through the first few months. I have to keep reminding myself as to why I really have to do this. This also maybe one of the times where I have to listen to Amy Cuddy's ted talk and to really hound in on how I can fake it till I make it.
That's it friends. Fake it till you make it!!! While I actually don't believe in faking things or feelings, starting this new job maybe a good place to really put that in practice. I need to just fake it and hopefully by faking it, I will get to place where I would not be feeling so overwhelmed.
But, its going to be okay. It's going to be for the best and it will all fall in place. My feelings will go away and who knows, I may actually like the job. I might even enjoy it. Who knows! The only thing I can do now is to continue my vacation and really enjoying myself. As I say to myself soak it in girl!!!
Wish you peace and love!
Peace,
Monita
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