LAST DAY OF THE DECADE AND 2019

WOW!!! It is the last day of the decade!!! Where has the time gone. I always think that... but it has really gone by so fast.

As I sit here on New Years eve and reflect on the year gone, I do feel very grateful and blessed. I have personally come really far and am really proud of all that I have gone through and the strength that I gained as I end this decade.

My wish is for the next year to even be better and it will be. I still need to grow a lot and do a lot. I feel as we end the decade and start a new one, I will strategically plan out my short and long term plan. 

I am also really proud of having my 2 babies this last decade and the greatest honor of being their mom. What a great way to end the decade as my oldest completed his first decade and my daughter turns 8 in a few weeks. A proud mama indeed.

I was thinking about all the things I did do this past decade and all the ones I missed out on. One of the other big things was buying the house we currently live in. I love this out and have found my quietest times alone in the mornings sipping my tea sitting out on my front porch. 

There are so many moments I can remember and some I would like to forget but one of the most important findings was my own heart and self-acceptance. I found my way and although I am no where close to being done, I have at least begun the journey and it starts with the end of this decade to the birth of a new one.

I loved the past 10 years, marked with so many happy moments. I would like to end the year remembering the good moments and all the areas that I grew rather than focusing on the not so good ones. Even the not so good experiences were learning opportunities and as long as I have learned the lesson, I can live with my not so good actions and behaviors. 

My wish for the new year is to do an even job at loving myself and working on self acceptance even more, especially on the days when I don't really feel it. Being more introspective and recognizing my feelings, emotions and acting accordingly will always be a challenge. I wish I can stay in the happy, do and say everything right state all the time and every single day but that is probably unrealistic since I am a human with tons of emotions!!

I have decided to come up with a word or a mantra every month to help me along this year. I think it will help me stick to my goals better and hold myself accountable. I am not sure what I will start with for next month but something to definitely think about.

One of the other things I want to work on is spending more one on one time with my kids. I did not do a very good job this year and hope to do a better job next year. Other than just, just focusing on building more experiences will be key for me. I want to travel a lot more, and spend on things that are of real value to me like building memories. 

As I get older my priorities change and this year is no different. I certainly don't want to look back at 2020 as another year where all my dreams were yet again unfulfilled due to my fear or me just holding back because of some reason that my mind came up with. 

Life is short and the years do go by fast so live life lovingly and move forward to the next year with all your might!! It will be a great one.

Wishing you peace and love my friends!

Peace,
Monita