Hello My friends! Wow, it has been been 7 months since I last wrote on my blog. That is a long pause. I had been thinking about it and quite honestly it fell on the wayside since I was focused on so many other things. So here is why my pause was so long.
Well, I finally quit my job back in February. Yippee for me!!! It was the best decision ever. I am so happy that I took that difficult step. It was really hard to be without a steady paycheck for so many months but I have no regrets. I have grown so much and it was all worth it. Not saying it was easy but I knew that staying at my job another day would not be an option. I could not walk in there and do my work anymore. I really like my team members and got along with every one of them. We have a good friendship and I miss them dearly but I knew that I needed to quit and I am so glad that I did something about my uneasiness and thought about myself for a change.
I enrolled at George Mason University for the Leadership Coaching for Organizational Well Being Accredited program that started in February and ended in June. I worked part time in between and that was great. I ended up leaving the part time job in June and took the summer off to be with my kids for the summer. It was the best summer ever. I loved being a stay home mom and enjoyed spending time with them. We also had family come visit which was fun and the kids had a lot of fun spending time with their cousins. I love camp mom!!!
So now the kids are back in school and I recently accepted a job offer. I am going back to work full time. I need to go back and hope that my next job will different then the last one. I also do not plan on staying there another 14 years but I feel a lot more clear headed now and know that I have a choice.
When I think about the long pause I have had in writing, it does make me feel sad. I love to write and wish I could take back the time to write. But, I am back now and ready to write. I don't necessarily have an agenda and that is okay. I am not sure how often I will write but it will certainly not be 8 months from now. That's for sure.
The pause was not a stop. It was a break to allow me to really focus on getting my certification and to spend time with family. Don't we all need to pause every now and then? Yes, we do and it will be different for everyone. My pause in writing was long but now as I look back and reflect I think it was necessary. I know that I will always have my writing and that will stay with me forever and I can now spend more time and focus on it. While I was doing my certification, I did have the time but I spent it on what I needed most then. Could I have used my time better? For sure, but I did what I needed to do.
I realize that while I can spend a lot of time beating myself up for not writing all these months or I can get over it and focus on what I want to do now. I choose the latter. Now, I am at a different place and I feel differently from the inside. I experienced so much growth just from the last few months and am so truly grateful for the experience. I am just so thankful for the time I had to myself and for my family. The time that passed and the long pause I had in my writing and my job will likely never come again soon. This is one of the most memorable years ever!!! Giving birth to my kids is the most memorable...
So here we are on the start of a long holiday weekend. The kids are back in school and I can feel the weather changing. I can feel the change not only in the air but in my life and the upcoming weeks. The pause has made me more self aware. For a long time, especially after I left my job, I felt a bit lost and now I feel a lot more clear headed. A feel a shift within myself and the pause has allowed me to grow within.
So it has been a good thing. It was much needed and I can now look at things a little differently. If anyone of you have ever experienced an intentional pause, I hope you too have the chance to reflect that time and think about what a difference it has made in your life.
Wish you well my friends!
Peace,
Monita
