BEING THANKFUL FOR WHATS YET TO COME

Happy Sunday you all!!! It is a 3 day weekend so the kids are really excited about being able to sleep in tomorrow. I need to go to work since it is not a holiday for me so will miss spending the day with them. I always make sure to keep Sundays completely free and spend the time this valuable time together as a family. 

During my morning reflection today, I realized how important it is for me to continuously express my gratitude for all the things that I have in my life. I keep a gratitude journal and I try to write a few things that I am grateful for everyday if I can. I noticed how writing it down helps me to remember to have the attitude of gratitude. 

I recently read in a book once that in addition to having gratitude everyday, a very good practice is also to be thankful for the things that are yet to come. The author described it as a way to attract the things that you want. I thought it was a very interesting concept. I was not sure about the ability to attract by being thankful as if you already have it. 

I guess it was in a way describing the feeling of really wanting something deeply and by being grateful for it, it changes your thoughts. For me, I took it as one would feel more motivated to go after the future thing that are thankful for. 

I felt really good when I read that and I somehow can't seem to remember where I read it first. I have since read about the same concept in a couple of other books as well and decided that I am going to give it a try. 

So now, I not only am grateful for the things that happen in a day but also for the things that are yet to come to me. For example, I wrote I am thankful for the wondering job opportunity coming my way soon. As I am now writing and thinking about this a little more, I realized that being specific really helps rather then just writing a wonderful job opportunity. In order for me to really feel the gratitude, I need to get some detail about the wonderful job opportunity and what that means. Actually I may not get all the things that I want so focusing in on the top most important thing, like working from home a couple days a week, will be a start. 

I do think that it is a great way to feel optimistic about life. You may not have everything that you would like right now, but knowing that and being thankful for it to come to you some day really pushes me and gives me hope. If I am half-hearted about it, it would not come to me. I have to be full in and really feel the gratitude in my bones. 

My initial thought was also what if I am setting my expectations to high and hoping for something that will not come to me. Will I be disappointed that I was all this time being grateful for nothing? No...... it never goes to waste.

When I start being thankful for all the things that are yet to come to my life, the push that I feel is real. Rather than feeling stuck in some situations, I find that I start to think about the ways that I can really move forwards. I may not have the solution or I may not have the thing that I want right away but it forces me to stop the doubts that are in my mind. 

Doubting that my dreams will come true will only make it go away. If I am thankful that one day I will get it, I feel like I have surrendered my request to the universe. I am still going to do my part and have a plan but I don't need to know if I will ever receive it. I can only do my part and what is mean't to be will be.

Being in gratitude for the things that are yet to come helps me in some way to stay in faith and not loose hope. I still have a lot of work to do on myself to firmly plant the roots of my faith deep in the ground and hopefully feeling and living a life of gratitude will make the roots deeper.

So from here on out, I will be thankful for the all the things that are coming my way. I may not see them and I may not get everything, but I will always be thankful for the past, present and future.

Wish you love and peace my friends!

Peace,


Monita

FIRST TWO WEEKS AT MY NEW JOB

Good Morning my friends! It's Sunday. My kids are still asleep and I have been up since 4:45am. I am an early riser even on the weekends and I love it. I do get a lot of me time before they wake up and really make use of it. Most of the time, a lot of good thoughts come to my mind and I try to remember them throughout the day. 

I just completed my second week at my new job. So how did it all go? In short, its been quite an adjustment. Can't really say how things will go but my gut is telling me that this will not work out for the long run. I had a rough first week with lots of technical difficulties just to get set up. I also did not realize that the company does not provide any coffee/tea or supplies so I had to find a way to get set up with the things that I needed. I only have a couple of other members on the team and sit in an enclosed area that is absolutely freezing. 

So I know that the issues are really no big deal and I can really figure it out. The biggest thing that I experienced was resistance. I felt this feeling of not wanting to be there and was resistant. I had to force myself to pay attention and to stay focused and I had an achy feeling. It almost reminded me of how I felt every single day during the last year of my old job. 

Part of the reason is that I can see this job becoming very monotonous. It will be the same thing every single day and month. Once I learn it and get comfortable, there is really nothing exciting about it. I noticed that if I am really not interested in having a monotonous job. There could be other things that come up but more the most part, its really the same thing day in and day out. Most peoples job are that way but I am really not interested in the work itself. 

I think in short, I have not been feeling excited about it. The great thing about the new job is my commute. I am so close to home. I actually feel good about earning again and being in the situation that I am in. Nurturing my heart and soul is really about following my deepest desires and while this does provide with the paycheck, it does not nurture my soul in anyway. That's where the writing in this blog comes in. 

Keeping that perspective in mind, I know that the job will be bearable for now. The other bigger issue is that there is no telecommuting allowed which is a big no for me. I need that option to be able to telecommute at least once a week and not having that option really makes it even harder and creates more resistance for me. 

So what am I going to do? Well firstly, I am thankful that I have a job and a way to provide for my family. Very thankful. Secondly, I have a choice and an opportunity here. I am going to focus on the positive and not ignore the resistance I am feeling. The resistance is good and is probably a combination of the job itself , the environment and the adjustment period to get comfortable at a new job. 

Noticing and being aware of my feelings are so important. I don't want to ignore it. I do want to give it time and see if anything changes. I keep reminding myself that it has just been 2 weeks and I need to be gentle with myself. I can't ignore the feelings but giving it time to really see what it is that I am really feeling is important. I do know that the telecommute is a big issue for me. 

For now, I am still looking out. I really don't want to just get settled here. Doing the work is one thing but when there is no excitement or motivation, then it becomes an entirely different game. I don't want to stay just because it may be convenient. I need to feel excited. Can I create my own excitement? Yes I can in other things that I do outside of work, however, I can't change my job description and responsibilities. They are what they are. 

I also do know that there will be other opportunities within the company that I can move to eventually so it is not the end of the world. I have just come to realize that I get to chose what I want to do and if this does not work out then there is always another opportunity. There is no need for me to feel that much resistance and I can choose to move whenever I want. Its my life after all and I am the author if it. I get to create my next opportunity where I can feel excited and motivated. 

I am so very grateful though for the place that I am in. I get a paycheck, I woke up today and I am still breathing. The rest is figureoutable. 

Wish you peace and love,

Peace

Monita