Hello Friends! So why has it taken me so long to write on my blog. I mean one blog every 3 months!!! Well, we are in a pandemic and boy have I been going through a whirlwind of emotions. Its been so tough and long.
This is obviously the first ever pandemic that most of us have experienced and it feels long, isolating and frustrating and many other emotions all in this one big stormy year. It has been so hard on the kids and they have been feeling very lonely. But why has it taken me so long to write and why do some things feel so long or take forever.
In hindsight, this year seem to have gone by fast and now we are at the end of summer but it feels long and very tiring. I have had so many revelations about my own self that I am still trying to work through. I wished I had more breakthroughs but perhaps that will come (hey trying to be optimistic here)...
One of the reasons it feels so long is because it is one of the most difficult times we have been through. Probably the most difficult. It is almost like being in labor where you just want the baby out and the pain is so unbearable but you have to wait for hours sometimes before the baby decides to makes it way out and boy during that time, it can feel like forever.
Well, now is one of those times where it is so painful and you just want it to be over with. I know that a lot of times, I have just wanted a miracle drug or vaccine to just appear magically.. but we don't live in a magic land do we....but I am allowed to dream that we do even if just for a minute.
So things have been so so awful and so so good as well. The awful seems to last so long and the good is trying to scream "hey look at me and all the things I am trying to show you and teach you, listen up already". At least that's my 2 sides that keep trying to get my attention, but my head does not want to listen to any of the good. It's the stubborn little girl inside of me who keeps wanting to stay on the awful side and whining about all of this. But come on there is a lot to whine about and a lot to feel angry about since that is the current state of reality that we are in. So much of B.S that the good side of me keeps getting washed over.
So what does one do in this long fight for all lives? Does it magically go away? Well no. But what we do now will make us who we are at the end of this fight. This is not just a pandemic fight for all of us and those on the front lines, but a fight for all women and men and for #BLM movement and a long one. It is an uphill, steep battle but one that I know where we will prevail since there is no other option but to get out there and make your voice heard, stand up for yourself , justice, peace, love and truth.
But as long as it has been maybe there is no other option. There is no other option other than to just do the right thing day in and day out even though you feel its long and not getting anywhere or your voice heard. The good and the winners will come out at the end of the long battle and stand out as the true exceptional people. That's what I hope for all of us and for myself.
Even though its taken me so long to write and fight my inner and outer voices I will come out on the other side feeling like a winner in life. I hope that for you to my friend!!! Keep the love and peace coming.
Peace,
Monita
