SUNDAYS

So I woke up this morning at 4:22 a.m. and thought to myself that I was going to lay in bed for 8 more minutes and will wake up at 4:30 a.m. The next time my eyes opened was at 5:20 a.m. So the first thing I felt was really mad at myself for sleeping in longer than I wanted to. 

I did wake up and made myself a cup of ginger chai. I then started to feel really bad about being mad at myself for waking up an hour later. It is Sunday after all. There were no places to go, kids were asleep, nothing planned for Sunday and yet I got mad at myself.

I then started to examine why did I get mad. Well, I did plan on waking up early to write, exercise and to maybe start cooking for the week. So when I woke up later than planned, I did write, started on a few dishes for next week, but skipped my exercise for today. 

I then questioned myself and asked myself if it was really necessary to beat myself up. The answer is no. I did get in 5 days of exercise this week so skipping today was no big deal. But yet I was really hard on myself.

I think we women tend to be really hard on ourselves to do everything but what I did not like was beating myself up mentally over sleeping in on a sunday. I am pretty good about waking up on time during the weekends and I realized that I was so tired from yesterday and my body really needed the extra hour of sleep.

 So from now on Sundays is the day I get to give to myself. If I sleep in an extra hour, so what. If I don't work out first thing in the morning for one day, it's okay. I can always take a walk later outside in the afternoon, which will likely make my feel great to be with nature. If I don't make my dishes on a sunday it's okay too since I can plan for during the weekday.

The important thing is that I shall never get mad at myself for sleeping in on Sundays. I owe myself that. I also owe Sundays to myself to rejuvenate and refresh so I am better able to take care of myself and my kids. This is more about having a day to myself and taking care of my needs. Once I am able to do that, I will be a better mom to my kids and a better person overall. 

There are countless number of times that I have got mad at myself upon waking up Sunday mornings. As of today, no more. I loved sleeping in today and honestly felt so much better. 

Also, by taking care of me, I am able to show my kids the importance of self-care and making it a priority. When they see me doing that, they too will take the time to care for themselves. We all need that one day where we give back to ourselves. 

As a woman, I find myself, as I am sure we all do, constantly giving and giving. I now need to learn to do that for myself. So on Sundays, I will be in my pajamas if I want to, I will not answer any calls or messages unless it is urgent, I will take a walk outdoors to be one with nature, I will stretch and most importantly I will play with my kids. The cooking and everything else can wait. 

I hope that you all take that one day for you as I intend to for myself and for my life. Make it a Sunday or any other day that works for you to just be, to not get mad at yourself, let the laundry and other to do's go for one day. But not yourself. Take the time for self care. If you don't, who will.

Wish you love!!!

Peace 

Monita