Over spring break we went to Colorado to visit friends. We decided to go to Keystone for a couple of days where we did snowmobiling and snow tubing. It was a lot of fun and I just loved the mountains, even though it was really cold. The scenic drive to get to keystone was just breathtaking. Colorado is indeed a very beautiful place though I cannot see myself ever moving or living there.
One of the things that struck me the most was the mountains. I could not take my eyes off them and was totally in love with seeing how big and beautiful they are. Ever since we got back from colorado, I keep going through my pictures and the picture above just stops me. It makes me pause and I feel so humbled and small standing in front of the mountains. I love all the pictures I took especially with the kids, but there's something about the mountains and my life.
I have been climbing up the mountain in life and feel so strong. For anyone that has actually climbed a mountain knows how hard the climb is, how prepared you have to be with the altitude change and how you really need to push yourself and get acclimated if you want to get to the top, since isn't that where the reward is.
In life, I have been climbing and climbing and sometimes looking back. Its when I look back that I stumble, roll back on the mountains and it hurts.But I have learned that when I look back at my falls and hurts, I examine them from far and look for the lessons learned so I can get better the next time I find myself looking down that mountain. I try to look forward instead, remembering all the lessons learned as I continue the climb, encounter challengers and readjust my gear, which is mentally reminding myself of my personal mantras, to the changing climates of my life.
I am still climbing the mountain of life and have a long way to go, hopefully. But the important thing is that I am getting better at the climb. I am not saying that is easier but getting older certainly has provided me with the wisdom to manage the climb. There are days when I just can't handle things and feel like quitting and just throwing up my hands, giving up. I am glad that those days are less frequent now.
One thing for sure is that as prepared as I try to be, I can never know what is ahead. It is really hard to know what the climb will be like tomorrow. The only thing I know for sure is the climb as of this moment, this very minute. Sometimes, life throws you over but you have to deal with it, for you.
I have learned that while the mountain of life can be big, and bold and beautiful and scary at the same time, I can't take my eyes of its beauty and the peak, the thrill of being able to reach the peak.
But I find myself asking where is the peak and do you ever reach there? Do you reach half way only to fall down and find yourself never wanting to climb or turning away and giving up? Is the peak when you finally reach the end of your life since you are done with the climb and now get to just look down.
I am sure that for me the peak is when I am living my life fulfilled, authentic and according to my true self. I am starting to do that in most areas except for my career. I am not doing what I really want to do due to my circumstances but I am slowly and surely finding my way.
I also know that I am already mid way through life, assuming I get to live past 80 years of age so if I fall down, I will still climb and not turn away. I will heal all by bruises and do what it takes. There is no giving up now.
At the end of my life I want to be able to look back and say yes, I finally reached the peak of my mountain and I want to stand up with my arms wide open only smiling back at my beautiful life with no regrets. That is the peak for me you all... that is when I can say I did live my true wholly life.. and it's all a blessing!!!
My hope and wish it that we can climb this grandiose mountain together, hand in hand. We all need people in our lives to be able to hold on too. I know I need that hand and I am here to offer you my hand to hold and grab on to so we all lift each other up, help each other to the peak and love each other.
Its through connection and love that we will succeed in this climb and as much as I want to do it on my own, I can't and I know that everybody will need that someone to put that bandage on when they need it so I intend to be that person that will help you hand in hand. We can do this together.
Wish you all love!!
Peace
Monita
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