Good Monday morning! Hope you had a great weekend. Boy I have to write about how much fun I had yesterday dancing, playing and laughing with my kids. My daughter let me play subway surfers on her phone and it was great trying to runaway and not get caught. I love that game.
I smiled and laughed so much yesterday and it felt like the TRUE me. My daughter was asking me if I ate too much sugar or sweets since I was so hyper. I realized that the girl dancing, joking and laughing was actually who I really am and I somehow lost her in the past years.
It reminded me of the time of my younger days where I was so fun to be around with and had some friends. I don't know where I lost her but I want her back and yesterday was a glimpse of me. I realized that I have allowed so much of what's happened in my life to take over my way of being but sometimes you can't help that.
Having that awareness that the same old fun girl is still there, way inside and she is waiting to show up everyday makes me sad and happy. I have not allowed her to show up. Why? I think I know why and its gonna require a whole lot of inquiry and self work to bring her out everyday.
I am having a lot of conflicted feelings and in a fog. Can anyone of you relate? How many of you have the inner, fun, wild person inside of you that you buried a long time ago? I forgot about her. But she is in there and probably trying so hard to push her way through.
Having the awareness is the first step. Now comes the hard work on my self. I know that it would be really helpful to have someone to talk too and I am going to find that support. We all need the support and can't do it on our own. Call a friend, coach, mentor or a therapist but find someone and walk that journey to find yourself. You need to find that lost girl if and work on really bringing her back.
Lots of tough feelings today. Hang in there! I love you and you are worth it!!!
Wishing you peace and happiness from my heart to yours!
Peace
Monita
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